firstworldproblem | IC Inbox (Imeeji)

[He motions for Klaus to sit closer to him.]

[ scoots? over? ]

What's up?

[He wraps his arms around his shoulders and tucks him close, leaning his head against him.]

[ !!! ...????? LEANS THOUGH '-' ]

Alex?

Five loves you very much. And it would be unfair to compare what we have to what you have. The love is different. Just as I cannot compare the love I have for him and the love I have for Cosmo.

[He kisses the top of his head before returning to the lean against him.]

But he would give anything to save you, to see you happy. Even endure decades of solitude just for the chance to make it right. You all the shining beacon that kept him going.

So while it is hard for him to express it, do not doubt that it is there.

[ wrinkles his nose as he talks, but his shoulders are coming up a bit ]

I mean-- Yeah. I know. I know that. I just...

I dunno.

His words are in juxtaposition to his actions so its hard to tell what is real and what is not?

Nah, I don't let that bother me anymore.

[ too much ]

That's just how he is, I get it. I just don't know how to make things better for him, ever. And I don't think he even wants that? Like... He probably likes it more when I pretend I don't notice anything is wrong.

That's because he feels guilty being weak in front of you. He's put in his mind that his role is protector and guardian. The eldest.

'Tis not an excuse, but it might help you understand better. I have the same problem with Cosmo. He is by far my elder and will turn every burden back on himself if given the chance. Even to his own detriment. And even though I love him with all my heart, it does bring up barriers between us. Sometimes it is easier to talk to Five than him even though I have know Cosmo for eons.

[ wrinkles his nose ]

I get it. I don't have to like it. And he just thinks that way because he had a stunted childhood with that crazy bastard we called Dad, and then because he was stuck by himself in the apocalypse.

I don't want to belittle your concerns. You are trying and he is pushing back. Quite unfair to you when all you want is for his happiness.

I was simply concerned when you said he loved me over you. We have spoken and you will always take priority. Just as my people will as well.

I mean. His Klaus, anyway.

[ flaps a hand ]

Anyway! Sorry to make that all sorts of depressing! I'm fine! You're not! Let's talk about something more fun!

Nonsense. Who do you speak to on such topics?

Perhaps you are not of his timeline, but you are still his. Would you go home with him or back to your own timeline?

I dunno! I didn't think that far ahead.

Think about it. It is not a decision to be made likely, so take all the time you need.

Guess it depends on what other stuff I remember? I haven't taken memories in a bit, and the two I got were from when we were kids. I think mostly I get stuff from when we were kids?

I wish I could say that the memories of you as children are sweet, but you did have each other.

And I will not push further, but know you can come talk to me if you wish. Or if you ever just wish to enjoy the beach you can reach out to me.

[He kisses the top of his head again before he lets him go and lies in the sand, definitely reddening under the sun.]

Thanks, man. I appreciate it, I really do.

[ '-'..... weh. he's gonna start burying Alex in the sand, then. ]

[He doesn't stop him, but gives him a curious look.]

Am I a turtle?

You're gonna burn! Also, it's relaxing.

Who am I to argue that? Carry on then.

[ CARRYING ON ]

[How much is he going to get buried? Because he might start getting a little antsy more than 50%.]

[ he's just going to dump handfuls of sand over Alex until he gets told to stop! Though he's also building tiny little dribble castles on Alex's chest as he does so, so... idk, maybe 50%ish? ]

[Well, he's going to get sand all over this button up atrocious Hawaiian, shirt, but worth it. He can't help but laugh a little though.]

There are buckets if you wish to make a proper sand castle.

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