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[ It's a little heartbreaking in its own way, to hear that. He's glad for the comfort he can provide him now, but he does wish it didn't feel so bad on a regular basis. He'll kiss his neck at that, hold him tight just to give him further proof that he's there, he's real, and he's not leaving him ]

We'll work toward making sure you'll feel that way under regular circumstances too.

[He leans his head up but he can hardly look at him.]

Don't think it isn't eased under normal circumstances. I would have drowned in it had you not so unexpectedly offered your hand. You weren't the only one silently asking for the other to stay.

Lahabrea helps tremendously. As do you. BARiTONES to a smaller degree though Vergil and Absinthe more than the others.

It has taken a turn. There is actual hope at the end rather than simply watching both of my companions erode themselves in different ways.

When you put it like that, we really are quite the pair. Does it sound too dramatic if I say we saved each other? Well. From loneliness, if nothing else.

[ he reaches for both of his hands, lacing their fingers together as he holds him and keeps placing kisses on his skin, soft and loving ]

You know. I keep thinking. About the days we'll spend together. No life or death decisions. Just us, taking care of one another and the people we hold dear. Living our daily lives.

I'm going to bring so many books back to your place you'll have to kick me out.

It is not dramatic if it is the truth.

[He hums at the kisses and chuckles at the words.]

If you bring enough books I will not be able to find you in order to kick you out. Not a terrible strategy all told. But we'll get you a room to work, a room connected to a porch so I can bathe in the sun and watch you.

But don't expect me to participate. The endless pursuit of knowledge you can share with Lahabrea. I'll be more than content to count the number of people as they go by as the most riveting activity.

[ There's a little laugh at that, and he shifts so he can rest his chin on his shoulder ]

You deserve a break, so I suppose I can allow that. Rest assured I will not neglect you, no matter how intriguing the knowledge I'll have access to will be.

Then, you could take me out. Share with me all the most breath-taking sights your world has to offer.

Of course I intend to do the same for you.

I do look forward to the day I can make you a field of flowers to enjoy. Ones carefully crafted for you tastes specifically. Perhaps that is where you should store your books.

I do expect the coffee tour of your home as well.

Are you sure that's not you trying to one-up me? I give you bouquets, and you give me an entire field?

Though your selection today really was touching.

We'd create it together. Since you are going to study anyway, you might as well help.

I might not have the talent for actual creation. But in that case. I'll simply expect you to take care of the practical part for me.

Oh, I have no doubts you can learn. It will just take time and tools to augment. If the shards can do it, you most certainly can.

But thank you. For this. For everything. While I may be careless with my heart, I do not let many people in this far.

Shouldn't I be the one to thank you for letting me in this far, to start with ...?

You know. I told you my fondest memory is that time during the truth game, when I decided to believe in your companionship. But thinking about it now I feel like the first time I truly felt my heart swell has been when you told me your real name.

It was precious to me. And it still is. A part of your true self that I've earned.

I didn't think anyone would earn the right, honestly. Even without your abilities, you can't help but be 'special', can you? You'd best use your tenacity to ensure we will never part.

And if you asked me to respond with my fondest memory, I will have you know I would not be able to pick just one.

[ he hums at that, and shifts so he can kiss his cheek ]

Then tell me about each of them. Anything that makes you happy — I want to hear about it.

Happy or overwhelmed? They are two different lists.

I distinctly remember the first time you tried to use our powers in conjunction. Though I was cross with you earlier in the conversation the fact that we got as far as we did was nothing short of brilliant. I'd missed collaborating like that even if we were both left exhausted and nearly bleeding in that dream.

I greatly enjoyed our spa excursion. You'd spent time thinking of it and of that it was apparent. And it was relaxing and soothing. A break from all this which was sorely needed.

The more recent one are too numerous to count. Your ideal illusion, your reaction at my proposal along with you gifting the rings later, our dreams spent on the pier. The are nearly too numerous.

But as much as the grand events, there is something incredibly special about you working on formulas as I was crafting Absinthe's chess set or you making fun of my inability to make coffee and teaching me proper. It is all these, large and small that make me so terribly fond of you. Truthfully, it has been a rather packed half a year, has it not?

You're right. It has been. And I'm definitely looking forward more of these small and large moments to spend with you. A couple thousand lifetimes to spend together.

Talking about it with you like this does make it feel more real. Like it isn't a dream and we won't have to wake up and face reality, after all.

Thank goodness you are not asking me for the overwhelming list. Though I imagine you'll have that for another day.

[He squeezes his hand.]

Even if it were all to fade tomorrow, I would not regret a moment of it. You have made my life all the better, Five Hargreeves. And being able to touch yours has lifted my spirits as well.

I'm giving you some mercy since the whole point of this exercise is to make you feel good, not bad. And I imagine you'll retaliate by asking the same of me, so you can consider this me buying myself some time.

Am I allowed to say I love you again?

As if you ever have to ask permission.

[He does lift one of his hands to his lips so he can kiss it softly on the knuckles.]

Well, you did cry earlier. And to be honest I am a little worried about it.

But we're adding that to the list of things I'll ask you about later.

Assure yourself it was being overwhelmed with affection. It felt ... warm. Not that it usually doesn't. And you did catch me by surprise.

[He reaches back at an awkward angle and tilts his head towards him.]

Come here.

[Also known as 'kiss me'.]

[ there's a soft smile at that and the words, and of course he adjusts so he can kiss him the moment he asks for it ]

[With that urge satisfied he will continue to relax and lean back against him. Fingers will draw idle patterns on the back of his hand and wrist.]

Thank you, Five Hargreeves.

[ he will just cuddle up against him and kiss the top of his head, humming at the words, perfectly content to just keep him in his arms ]

[He will stay there for many minutes, completely content. Forgetting all that lies ahead, all the obstacles, and just to feel Five with him.

How he wants to share these moment with him in Amaurot. In Five's world. He can almost imagine it coming true. A not so far fetched dream that will bring water to his eyes, but not enough to draw tears.

And after the minutes and the haze of it all --- such a glorious gift --- begins to fade, he will sit up turning so he can look at him quite fondly.]

[ It's incredibly nice to just enjoy each other's company like that. The plans and scheming have always been exciting, and he'd always thought it'd suit him more — after all, he's someone who needs to stay on the move.

But he's finding that it feels nice to take a break with emet. To just do nothing but bask in his presence, feel his warmth and simply stay with him. It brings him peace in a way he never imagined possible.

And when Emet moves and looks at him, he's confused for a moment, but then it clicks ]

—Has it passed?

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