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Then we will simply have to work on putting those pieces into place.

We both will.

Now Absinthe did bring up an interesting point if you are willing to listen. It might be upsetting.

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That is all I want.

[To work together, to save their people and world.]

...But go on.

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To alleviate your discomfort, I could try to re-temper you within a dream. Though that would hardly carry over to the waking world.

It is... a thought. One I am not entirely sure I like the idea of at all.

[He has a lot of complicated feelings right now.]

[He leans back in and holds him.]

A thought. I would not force the matter.

And truthfully, I have been to afraid to ask if you prefer being like this.

[He wraps his arms around Emet and runs his fingers through his hair.]

Let us say my thoughts on it are complicated. If you ask if I prefer having my mind wholly my own, yes. If you ask if I prefer to feel as I do? No. But if it is the necessary price for the future I wish for, then... I would still pay it gladly.

[Lets not talk about his feelings of responsibility for all he's slaughtered either.]

Zodiark's embrace is a great comfort, something that has been useful to us, but I realize now that it is also limiting. [And it comes with too much horrifying justification.] So... Well, my feelings are mixed.

I simply wish to provide you more reprieve beyond soft words and gentle touches.

[He says as he holds him closer rubbing up and down his arms and sides idly. He doesn't even argue the limiting part, because he knows it to be true.]

No matter what happens, I shall be at your side. Though it does pain me to imagine the state your soul is in. And I do hope it is temporary for I do not want to see what Hell would decide to fill the gaps with.

[He cups Emet's cheek and then lets his fingers brush back through his hair, touch is certainly a concrete enough comfort, as is touching Emet-Selch. And then leans his forehead to the man's sighing.]

I do not know. Part of me longs for it and the rest finds the idea disturbing, to say the least. It would likely ease my dreams, but I would dread waking from it.

'Tis why I've been avoiding dreams of late. I worry you would become dependent on them in an unhealthy manner.

[He continues to pet him, smooth and rhythmic. He leans closer if that is even possible.]

But I am here. I will always be to soothe, to comfort, to simply hold your hand if that is what you desire.

You being here is all I require.

[He lifts his fingers to run through Emet's hair, massage his scalp in turn.]

It truly is. The rest is helpful but it is your presence that I find most calming.

Then I apologize that duty takes me away from time to time. But what should I do if this lingers more than a few days? I haven't thought that far ahead.

And for the immediate moment, would adoration a little more active help?

Do not apologize. Just knowing you are nearby is comforting enough. If it lingers... I do not know. I haven't given it consideration.

If you wish to distract me I would not say no to your attention.

A distraction it is.

[He lays him down before kneeling over him and kissing his forehead, his cheek, the edge of his ear.]

[He lifts his arms, draping them over Emet's shoulders and running his fingers up into his hair, sighing at the kisses.]

You are ever attentive.

This is hardly as satisfying as I want it to be.

[Kissing his neck.]

Limited as this is. But a distraction it will make.

And here we just discussed why dreams aren't a good idea. Still I am tempted to suggest them anyway.

[He rakes his fingers lightly through Emet's hair, scratching his scalp.]

Not tonight.

[He's very soft towards him as he pets him, kisses him, adores him. Not necessarily gentle but definitely not rough as he tries to provide distraction and a promise that he will always be with him.

And of course to tire him out and leave pleased endorphins in its wake.

And he cradles him when they are done, enveloping him is as much warmth and soft encouragement as he can.]

[He lets himself be pampered without being fussy about it, curling against Emet-Selch at the end and just accepting the comfort and warmth, soaking it up even. At least he will sleep exhausted and comfortable.]

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