IC Inbox 2 (Imeeji)

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[failedsafe]

[She blushes at the thought of marrying levity]

Oh, certainly. He'd look so darling in a dress~! Not sure what else we could do though....

[firstworldproblem]

You are sure about this, are you not? It's not as easy at it seems and this place only complicates it.

[failedsafe]

Sure about what?

[firstworldproblem]

Levity.

[failedsafe]

Marrying him?

[firstworldproblem]

Is that what we were not just talking about besides the dresses?

[failedsafe]

Yeah, but...it's a pipe dream.

[She looks down.]

...I want him to have a full and happy life. He can't have that if he marries me.

[firstworldproblem]

And there is where I would like to delve into the specifics.

He might seem rather lacking in abilities here, but his skills nearly match my own. He is a powerful mage in his own right and brilliant besides.

What is it exactly that you are facing?

[failedsafe]

Monsters born of fear and a world where it storms constantly. All the landmasses have long been ago been flooded. No one has seen the sun or the stars in a very long time.

[firstworldproblem]

Do you star have a theory to get the sun and the stars back?

[failedsafe]

I don't remember the particulars, yet, if they were ever made known to me at all. I know my brother has to do with it all. It's why he was created and he is the best result they've managed so far.

[firstworldproblem]

How long is your lifespan, Lily? If interrupted by life's unpredictable nature.

[failedsafe]

...Hard to say without more data, but I'm guessing ten years total, give or take? And I'm already at least two years into that.

[firstworldproblem]

And it is the vessel that breaks down or something else?

[failedsafe]

Some sort of breakdown, I think. I think I'll just age and deteriorate before that happens, though. Assuming I'm not terminated.

[firstworldproblem]

I see.

I think these are conversations you should have with him. To figure out what you want and what he wants. To talk it through together.

[failedsafe]

Yeah...yeah, you're right of course, I just.

[she runs a hand through her hair.]

I don't want him to be unhappy, he already deals with so much without my adding to it. So much.

[firstworldproblem]

He probably would be more upset if you hid it from him.




If experience tells us anything.

[failedsafe]

[


that's a lesson she doesn't need to learn.]

Probably. [she sighs]

The truth is just so lame, sometimes. You don't have to tell me details, obviously, but are you two doing better, Emecchi?

[firstworldproblem]

Lame I don't believe is the right word.

I'd like to think we are. It is easier to speak to him, and I think we are finally both able to leave expectations behind. But I worry I simply cannot help him in the way he needs.

[failedsafe]

What do you think he needs?

[firstworldproblem]

Someone that can pull him out of that dark place his mind wanders to.

[failedsafe]

Why don't you think you can?

[firstworldproblem]

Our philosophies are rather different.

Though even if they were not, you all give me too much credit. I can pull up someone who desires to be helped. Those who simply need to be pushed onto a different path.

But when it comes to those who have trouble at finding worth in themselves or are stubbornly set on their path, well, I've watched more than one falter and fall.

[failedsafe]

Hmmm...I dunno. The philosophies, yes, that's fair, and I do not mean to undermine the wisdom of your latter point. It isn't that I disagree with that, to be clear. It isn't that I think you're infallible either, far from it. But...how do I put this...

You're very kind. You care at your core, everything you do falls back to that. That's kind of your whole thing. And Vivi...needs to feel connected to people. To love and be loved. All that other stuff isn't unimportant but it's also...just noise. Static. It just needs to be fine-tuned is all, to find the right wavelength.

I dunno. I'm not saying it'll be easy, but I guess I just have faith that you'll work it out, and that you're more capable than you think you are.

[She's looking ahead, deeply thoughtful.]

Hmm...