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[Hades does begin to swallow him, bit by bit. The feelings and connections to his mortal flesh slipping as Hades digs into his soul and feeds him more of the vastness of his own. He could grasp that awareness to the physical world back, but why would he?

As they mingle, it brings a different sort of heat that doesn't require physical release to feel good. A constant euphoria. Better than mortal coupling. That's an opinion Hades is forcing on him. Make him change his mind.

And through all this one single thought rings out. It source a true mix of both of their souls.

Stay. Perhaps forever.

And the Darkness creeps in, warm and inviting.]

[ Why would he, indeed? It's better than everything he's ever imagined he could feel. He wouldn't be able to tell whether that's how he genuinely feels or if it's Hades' opinion being forced on him, but right now it's difficult to care when all he can think about and feel is pleasure. A constant euphoria. A state that he's never thought possible for himself.

Of course he wants to stay. Of course he wants Hades to stay with him. And wouldn't it be nice if they spent the rest of their days like this, mingled together, fully belonging to each other. Never alone again.

Was he ever against Zodiark? Any doubts he's had about that just fade and disappear as well. It is warm, and it is inviting. And there's nothing wrong in finding comfort in what was their savior, is there? ]

[Welcome to the land of good coping mechanisms. It's great!

He pulls him down deeper cutting his connection to the physical world and dream world completely. No need for such mortal constructs. And they stay there warm and content with thoughts mingled for. All the loneliness, the worries of inadequacies, the failures, everything pushed out of this one space.

Everything will be okay. If they just believe in the Darkness, in Lord Zodiark, in each other, it will all be okay.

And since it seems neither really wants to move, the rest of the dream stays like this. For let's say, oh, a year or more. Wouldn't want to be greedy and be 500.]

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[ Great coping mechanism for people who have no issues at all they're both FINE.

And it really does feel just fine. He is content — in a way he probably has never been before. And without his doubts regarding Zodiark, regarding deities in general, it feels nice to just believe. To just exist and not even be himself anymore, but something different and special and unique that's only possible because he's one with Hades.

Would he even care to stay 500 years like this? It is pure bliss after all.

But every once in a while there's a stray thought that will come back to the back of his mind, even with their thoughts mingling together as they are.

His world. The apocalypse. His family. Brief flashes whenever he remembers there was something he needed to do, but they grow more insistent as time passes by - until they can't be ignored anymore.

He needs to go, he can't stay like this forever. And it's only then that he starts pulling away, trying to regain himself ]

[He pulls him back when he tries. Ever predictable. Wrapping him in mind numbing thoughts and comfort.]

[ It works. Of course it does — how could it not when all he ever wanted was to be safe and loved and cared for? He wants to stay with him and forget about everything that has ever hurt him.

But the thoughts do come back, over and over again, causing sharp spikes of pain each time ]

[When it becomes apparent he is unable to soothe him fully, he digs into his mind.

What pains you so?

It's more of an investigation than a question.]

[ My family.

The answer conjures images in his mind - of the apocalypse, of his siblings' bodies, of having to bury them.

I can't leave them again. ]

[The call of brethren. It stirs a lot of emotion within him. And the promise he made to Five rings in his head.

He loosens his hold. He does not break it, but Five has the ability to leave if he so chooses.]

[ And that's the worst part of it isn't it. Being able to choose. How he wishes he could stay with him, with the pleasure and comfort he brings, surrounded by nothing but love. Never having to feel alone again.

But he can't stay like this forever. Was this a dream? He's having a hard time distinguishing it from reality - and it's funny, really, last time he wanted to end it regardless, now he wishes he didn't have to.

But he does pull back, slowly let his souls leave Hades' embrace, becoming his own again even if he lets him feel his emotions, still - love and longing and a sense of emptiness at having to leave him ]

[Five is like Lahabrea in so many ways. Able to take that first step when other's hesitate. When the two Ascians merge souls its is absolutely not Hades that initiates the separation.

He'll regain his awareness of his physical form back in that throne room with the crowd behind him and Emet panting, flushed, and bound before him. Though his thoughts do seem be a million miles away.]

[ as nice as his fantasy was he can't be bothered to come back to it. And so he lets the crowd fade and disappear - the throne room remaining there but the scenery will change slightly - the window outside showing Amaurot's spires.

And Five will reach for him, lifting him up so he can sit on the throne instead and let Emet sit on his lap, releasing the common laws as he does. He'll rest his forehead against his and take a few moments to let what just happened sink in. ]

I'm still here with you, my moon and stars.

Now, why such an expression?

[He sits comfortably on his lap wrapping his arms around him and kissing the corner of his mouth.]

To be with you like that... But you have your duty, and I have mine. How fortunate we've been able to twine them together.

Because I'm worried for you, asshole.

[ Of course he is. He had to leave him after all. But the kiss does soothe his worries, and the words help with that as well ]

That was intense.

[He laughs and wedges his knees between Five and the chair so he can turn to face him, straddling his lap.]

I've not done that with any but my own kind, but I knew you would be able to adapt.

[He kisses him lightly.]

Thank you. And now without a doubt you know my feelings and I yours. Carry them with you always.

[ He returns the kiss with no hesitation, one hand going to the back of Emet's head while his other wraps around his waist, keeping him close ]

I could have stayed like that with you forever. I guess I understand why you're so fond of it.

[ and then there's a small laugh ]

You love me.

[ he knew it already, of course. But knowing and feeling it so strongly is something else ]

[He cups his face with both hands.]

Of course I do.

[He holds him for a long time, before he slips off his lap and stands up taking his hands.]

[ he takes that as his cue to get up, following him and keeping the hold on his hand ]

And what do you have in mind now?

If were are going to be pausing certain activities I would like to go outside.

[He does free one hand so he can snap his fingers garbing himself in something similar to what Five is wearing.]

Unless you have objections.

I don't.

[ he leans in to kiss his cheek as he says that, squeezing his hand ]

We can resume activities whenever we want if we feel inclined, after all. And any second spent with you is pleasure enough in itself.

Hopefully I have no diminished them for you. Though they do provide a different amount of pleasure. But now you can appreciate this all the more.

[He runs a hand up his back scratching at his soul.

He takes them to the roof so they can have a proper view of the city pulling him down so he can again sit in his lap.]

Oh, you have absolutely ruined them for me. I don't think anything will ever compare.

[ there's a pleased little hum at the touch of his soul, and he brings his arms around Emet's neck, taking a moment to just look at his face. There are some worries to the back of his mind, about Zodiark, about how easy it was for him to accept him once they merged their souls.

But it's a worry for another day ]

The view is nice.

I have been wanting to do that for quite some time. Applaud my restraint.

[He picks up that there is something amiss. Perhaps a linger effect of how close they were moments before. And there was a reason he was waiting for the soul merge.]

A new concern has entered your mind. What is it?

I am very impressed by your restraint. And will pat myself in the back for making you impatient enough that you basically begged me to let you.

[ Nevermind how eager he himself was, he clearly has the upper hand here. But there is a pause at the question, and for a moment he considers deflecting.

But in the end he decides to be honest ]

I know there's no resisting tempering. And after two experiences with it I should already accept it. But I still thought I'd be able to oppose his influence.

In the end it just felt right to give into it. My thoughts are my own and I don't regret merging with your soul, but I do wonder how helpful I can be to your cause if I cannot resist it.

[His face turns bright red.]

You used multiple partners, denial and Common Law. Be glad you got any response at all.

... Not that I didn't like it.

[And that's all the admittance he is going to get before moving onto to other topics.]

I was worried, but we are in a dream. It would be temporary at worst. As for resisting, 'tis night impossible save for already being claimed by another Primal.

How helpful?

[He can't help but roll his eyes.]

Try not to take too long listing all you already have done. Let alone all you have planned.

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