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A little. But it sounds a temporary measure.

[He gets up and crosses the room asking silently for permission before sitting down next to him.]

You do not have to heal within a day, a week, or even in years. The pace can be at your cho0sing. But tell me about this state you wish to achieve.

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[Sit is allowed! But still not so close as to touch. He leans back against the wall, looking at the ceiling with a smile.]

Well, that too is something I realized. It is as Lahabrea said - take it one day at a time. And every temporary measure need only be good enough until tomorrow. Every day, until tomorrow. Until the day I can see that tomorrow.

I went on a walk the other day. Just... walked, for the entire day, and I did not have to think about anything much. And it was amazing. My body is starting to feel more like my own again. Even if not always and not in full, I can taste food again. I needn't spend my every moment drowning in fear, though it yet lurks at the back of my mind, and I know the road ahead is long. But I want to make a start on it.

[He sits with him and gives him his space.]

He is taking good care of you, isn't he? Of course he is.

I am glad to hear it, my old friend. But you were always resilient and hopeful. Truthfully, it feels strange to give you advice. I felt it was I who always turned to you when my mind lead me astray.

But allow me to help anyway I can. Sometimes it is the smallest details that can make the biggest impact. For example, I could pack you lunch for your walks as I think you should continue taking them. A connection point so that you know that others are thinking of you.

[He sighs softly.]

I did feel somewhat guilty for not being able to be a pillar of support for you and Lahabrea. I know you have both been through much... but Lahabrea helped me realize that I needn't push myself needlessly for that, either. Just do what I can for you, when I can.

Having lunch to take with me would be sweet. And likely would help me preserve points. I do plan to keep taking them... I want to be myself again, sooner or later.

And what do I need support for? My soul excursion experiences were tame in comparison. Being nigh immortal I've lost my mortal vessel countless times. I truly does not bother me any longer.

I would not want to force a schedule, but I can leave them in the FIN kitchen. Though I am not much of a cook.

[...well he didn't know about you dying countless times over before, maybe if you shady fucks TOLD HIM ANYTHING AT ALL EVER.]

I do not mean in these "heart games" - I know you've endured much before that. Though I know not the specifics, of course, as both you and Lahabrea seem disinclined to tell me much.

[Gently chiding.]

And maybe you could cook them with Lily. I know she worries for me, too, and having someone else to support her would help her greatly, I believe.

[But where is the fun in that?]

If you truly wish to know, Hythlodaeus, I will not hide it from you. Though I recommend you heal from this wound first.

[He sighs at the mention of Lily.]

If you could help prod her in the direction that she is not a burden I would be much obliged. Anything I say seems to be taken in the worst context.

[Absinthe was shady at him and look where that led.

Levity's face darkens, too. So she does feel like that...]

...I wonder if what I say will be any use. I think that... she blames herself for not being able to protect me, even though this was no fault of hers, nor even--

[His expression changes to one of shock, rapidly.]

--Oh heavens. Is she still--

It helps if we all tell her the same thing. Perhaps it will stick. Though I would not hold my breathe.

[He tilts his head.]

Do you need to be somewhere else?

[He breathes out shakily, burying his face in his hands.]

N-No, it's... Back then, in Vergil's soul--she accidentally sent enemies to where I was. She had no idea I was there, she did not know I would be in danger. But she blamed herself greatly for it... She came to save me, and though she did not tell me I believe she died for it. I'm... I'm certain she still blames herself, though she couldn't have possibly known.

[He sighs.]

Lily. If only she did not have such crippling self doubt, how much she could accomplish. I find her nearly inconsolable at times, but surely progress will be made.

[Hythlodaeus pulls his knees up to his chest, hugging them.]

...Something happened to her, didn't it? Back in the world...

She was not thought highly of, no. More tool than human. The scars it has left are deep indeed.

But she isn't alone there. She has someone she cares for. However, she seeks approval from those who will never give it to her, and it does weigh so heavily on her heart.

[His hold tightens, brow furrowing.]

...Whoever it is, they're fools. Lily is wonderful. She's kind and strong and loving.

[Hythlodaeus breathes out quietly.]

I hope... I hope that I can help her understand it, one day. I love her so much, Hades...

She is all of those things and much more.

But it is hard to judge, is is not? I know little of the star she hails and its plights. And not all is so plain to the eye.

[...Frowns.]

I know not whether you mean to say that she might have done something terrible, or that those who do not love her must be forgiven.

More that the entire picture is not understood, thus a judgement would be rash. Lily is deserving of kindness, of love, of care and hope. But until we understand why, we can misstep.

She loves the water, you know. Perhaps you should take her somewhere she can enjoy it.

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