...I should have gone first, how can I manage to follow that up?
That loneliness already feels so far away. All thanks to you. And standing by you, waiting, was never such a hardship as you seem to believe. It was truly painful, but still a sweet ache, enjoying your attention nonetheless. I could have been content with that forever, but you've so readily given me so much more.
Everything I never imagined possible, how I had resigned myself, even nearly memoryless, to being alone and unwanted. To think my first friend would so quickly become the most important thing in my life. Especially when he turned out to be someone else? Perhaps I should have had better judgement, but it has worked out so well for me to put blind faith in you. I could never regret a single moment with such a strange and passionate man, every one has been wonderful. Because you are.
You promised that I could do anything I wish with your heart once you could give it to me. I can't think of anything I would want more than what you are already giving me. You so often said that you are too old, too weary, frightened... I want to make sure you never feel that way again, about anything. So, my promise to you is to always ensure you feel as if every day and experience is fresh and new, no matter how familiar with it you already are, to give you more love and peaceful moments than you could ever dream of, so you will never again know any worry or weariness. And of course, to be with you always, as long as you wish forever to be, never more than a breath away. You deserve the world, and I will strive to give you as much and more. Perhaps even more so, I swear to be yours, body, heart, and soul.
...I am not nearly as eloquent as you, I don't know how to begin praising you as much as you deserve. But you are the most remarkable person I have ever seen, far more than I could imagine anyone else ever reaching, I admire everything from your strength and perseverance to your intelligence and creativity - and perhaps most of all the intensity and obsession that I so benefit from, that ease my own madness.
[He laughs softly.]
How's that for romantic wedding vows? I love you, Hephaistos. You truly are my entire world.
Re: DAY 19: ACTUAL WEDDING
Everything I never imagined possible, how I had resigned myself, even nearly memoryless, to being alone and unwanted. To think my first friend would so quickly become the most important thing in my life. Especially when he turned out to be someone else? Perhaps I should have had better judgement, but it has worked out so well for me to put blind faith in you. I could never regret a single moment with such a strange and passionate man, every one has been wonderful. Because you are.
You promised that I could do anything I wish with your heart once you could give it to me. I can't think of anything I would want more than what you are already giving me. You so often said that you are too old, too weary, frightened... I want to make sure you never feel that way again, about anything. So, my promise to you is to always ensure you feel as if every day and experience is fresh and new, no matter how familiar with it you already are, to give you more love and peaceful moments than you could ever dream of, so you will never again know any worry or weariness. And of course, to be with you always, as long as you wish forever to be, never more than a breath away. You deserve the world, and I will strive to give you as much and more. Perhaps even more so, I swear to be yours, body, heart, and soul.
...I am not nearly as eloquent as you, I don't know how to begin praising you as much as you deserve. But you are the most remarkable person I have ever seen, far more than I could imagine anyone else ever reaching, I admire everything from your strength and perseverance to your intelligence and creativity - and perhaps most of all the intensity and obsession that I so benefit from, that ease my own madness.
[He laughs softly.]