firstworldproblem | IC Inbox 2 (Imeeji)

Hades: Nonsense. You drive.
Hades: I'll meet you at the entrance to the garage.

[have you considered not being so old??

ANYWAY he doesn't have back problems and fin is on a lower floor, so Levity is already there in the garage when Emet shows up. Honks the car horn at him graciously, although the signal sure is several bars of a jazz cover of A Cruel Angel's Thesis.]

Hades! Come aboard.

[Have I mentioned his car is this.]

[He takes ONE look at the vehicle and the thought of 'on second though, public transport.....' going through his head and face, but he then just gets in. He may be old and likes long drives, but he's also dramatic.]

Continue driving. I will tell you where to turn.

[He brought a basket with him with water, light food, and maybe a blanket. So Levity was probably waiting a little bit. He's right. He's not fast.]

[Yeah no you're stuck with this sparkly monstrosity. He loves this car and he loves annoying people with it. Peering at the basket, though!]

Oh, are we going for a picnic? How sweet!

[Well, time to start the car and get to the driving, though it's mostly for show since fin can control machinery with mind powers.]

You are more than welcome to lie on the hard ground if you desire. I enjoy my comforts.

[He's just watching the FiN powers at work a little impressed.]

How useful.

I can just lie on top of you. Problem solved.

[He notices the staring, though!]

Mm. I've been thinking about expanding the ways of using our powers. This is a textbook application, of course.

You would.

[He motions him to take a road that will go further out of the city.]

Tell me. It sounds rather fascinating, and I haven't actually been too close with a person on Future is Now to get a true feel of their power set.

[Follows the directions! For now?]

Hmmm~ and what will you do if I tell you?

Now who is learning to be secretive?

I have my reasons.

Then keep them. I'd rather watch you burst at the seems trying to contain your excitement when you do stumble upon something marvelous, which I have no doubts you will in time.

[unfortunately his reasons are paranoia.

Unexpectedly, though, his voice grows quieter, his expression more tired.]

... It would be nice, that kind of thing.

No confidence in your abilities?

Little confidence in my ability to find anything marvelous.

[Emet he has DEPRESSION]

I suppose it depends on your definition of marvelous. Do you smile after? Does your heart swell with pride? Do you find yourself simply being pleased with your new creation?

... Many things are marvelous in that manner. But I find myself wondering whether it truly matters compared to the pain and death we go through. I envy you your ability to brush it away.

[He takes his hand.]

Brush away? More akin to burying my head in the sand. I focus on what memories brings me joy. If I did not, I would simply drown.

And it matters. Every moment, content or not, sad or not.

[Squeezes his hand briefly! But trying to keep his focus on the driving.]

Still... even that much is nearly impossible for me.

But speaking of drowning, I did have a favour to ask of you. Or perhaps a demand to make, depending on how you wish to look at it.

I do wish you did not have to practice.

[As for the directions, he is definitely taking them well out of the city center.]

How ominous. What is it?

[Being away from the public suits him just fine! Field trip field trip]

Oh, it is ominous indeed.

But in truth, I wanted to ask you to give me more exercises or homework in dealing with souls. Some problems to solve. I need some manner of a tangible goal. Without it, I find myself unraveling, uncertain what it is I want, what I can do.

I can provide you lesson and Cosmo can allow you to practice as much as we can in a dream.

But more than that, I would ask you to find your own goal. Or perhaps a better question is, what do you want?

[He just... doesn't reply. For a very long time.]

... right now? To believe I have a future. That things will be fine one day.

No--more than that, I want to have a goal. A purpose. I don't have one right now.

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Practicing in soul magic is a good focus. I doubt I will be able to completely untangle Absinthe's soul without your help after all.

But I imagine you'll find most activities hollow unless you find a reason to live for yourself.

As less grandiose goal, I would consider picking up a hobby as well.

I have any amount of those. But much as you say, most things feel... hollow.

[He's quiet for a while, weighing his words.]

You see, I don't quite understand what purpose I would serve in the world you restore. Or along the way. You are unwilling to let me join you, perhaps for a good reason. By a similar token, I daren't look for my own way of saving our world because it would likely undo your own work. And once it's complete... Isn't there another version of me waiting for you back home? One who remembers everything, and thus would likely be a much better candidate for helping you with Absinthe's soul. Not to mention doesn't have the scars I already do have and will acquire by the time all is done.

[He taps his chin.]

I wouldn't go as far to say as I am unwilling to let you join. At least not now. Perhaps I was more cautions before. But I will need to amend a few contracts before I speak freely of it, else I will be rather lacking in words for a few days.

As for worrying about your other versions, I think it will be marvelous to entertain my younger self.

[Torment. He means friendly torment.]

Though I can see how it can be daunting. Feeling replaced. And truthfully, I'd take three mages in experts over souls over two. The two of you are not clones of each other with the same thoughts going through your head. At one point, you shared the same experience, but your experiences beyond that will help you grow differently.

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