firstworldproblem | IC Inbox 2 (Imeeji)

Were you worried he would not?

I know your feelings are complicated on the matter, so I would like to hear them.

Thancred wasn't receptive about it initially. Even after explaining that we would reset the timeline, rather than kill everyone on each shard to force a rejoining, he still didn't like it.

It took us getting close for him to even consider it.

Ardbert did have a different experience, so I suppose it makes sense he's willing to not stand in our way even if he's not exactly happy with you.

But it is more complicated with the hero than it is Thancred, is it not?

I know you are dealing with jealousy and perhaps even feelings of inadequacy. Couple that with how you feel for him and sympathize with him.

... It is complicated, yes.

[ which means that he nailed it ]

I'd like to secure his cooperation, or as close as we can get to it, both because I feel for him and because he has the potential of being a threat. My ... other feelings. Are not tied to it.

Ever have you been able to put duty before your personal feelings, but that does not mean they burden you so.

[He kisses the top of his head.]

If we can find him a place, a star, he can live, I would like that as well.

I think he'd need to hear that from you. But that would be nice, wouldn't it.

[ he'll just cuddle up to him, they can garden in a second. ]

I know how it feels to be surrounded by people again after so long. To experience physical touch again. I tried to help him with some of the more overwhelming parts, but he'll have to do most of the work himself.

Not yet. I think he would not think it genuine. He needs more time to warm up. If we ever make it there.

[He wraps his arms up more around his shoulders stroking his hair.]

It must be overwhelming just as it was for you. How long was it before you were able to relax into a hug? But more than that I think knowing he can go to you, that you will understand, and not tell him to brush off his fears does more good than you know. A bit of a safety net to fall back to.

Right now it definitely would not give you any points. If anything he'd think you're trying to manipulate him again. ... But I am glad that you truly are making an effort.

And I'm proud of you.

I always am, but well. I figured I should tell you.

It is truly terrible I value your opinion enough to make an effort. Lahabrea would never request such of me.

[Translation: Your heartfelt declaration of being proud does warm my heart.]

[ he can tell he's being sour to deflect ]

So terrible indeed. How will you survive me trying to push you into doing something that will benefit you.

I suppose it just comes with the rest of the package. How dour that it is to my benefit.

[He leans his forehead against his.]

Though as much as I wish the best for that hero, I do hope a speaking with him helps your own experiences. Perhaps give some peace to the loneliness, the journey you have walked thus far.

I already have you to help with that. With Ardbert, well. It is more that I dislike seeing people go through things I have. And unfortunately for myself, if I can help I want to.

Something you unfortunately for me, kept encouraging.

You could always use more in my humble opinion.

You ability to express yourself has become a quality of yours.

How is the jealousy going?

A little better than I expected. Sometimes it rears its ugly head but so far I'm able to keep it at bay.

Yours?

Similar despite knowing it is rather foolish. It doesn't help that Caeli is actually a little charming.

We are quite the pair, aren't we?

I wouldn't have it any other way. And if anything the fact we're both having some slight jealousy issue makes me feel a little less foolish for it. At least we can work through it together.

It does help that we can both look upon it from our own and the other's perspective, thus quelling the worry somewhat. And we have both lost a great deal, almost accustomed to it rather than gaining.

But I am happy for you and your new found relationship. And I do wish any shard of Azem happiness provided they do not get in my way.

And why is that.

Because part of their soul was once your dear friend's? You know this is a step up from not considering shards alive at all.

Alive or not, now that we are on a path that doesn’t require direct confrontation, I find myself pitying them more than trying to manipulate them.

Well. Isn't that because you're kind by nature?

Absolutely not. You’ve seen Levity’s memories.

Nice try but that only confirms it.

[ he kisses the tip of his nose before getting up and offering him his hand ]

A peaceful option wasn't possible before, so. It makes sense you didn't have the luxury of feeling for any of the shards.

[You can’t use his trick against him! And he does blush a little before being pulled up.]

I can only blame Cardinal and others then for showing me that perhaps those of a limited lifespan are worth anything.

You don’t count by the way. Immortal as we suspect you are.

I don't mind being the exception, that only means others were able to show you their worth.

[ he won't let his hand go, and instead, he brings it to his lips for a kiss ]

And if it ultimately makes things easier on you, then I'm only happy to see you grow.

Again and again, you've proved yourself my best investment. No other place would suit storing this heart of mine.

[He blushes and tries to hide it with a wave of his hand towards the scenery.]

We were to plant flowers, correct?

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