[Lily and Levity are either very good for each other or (checks hand) imagine worst case scenarios and work themselves up into self-sacrifice for the sake of one another. Or others. It's a white hair thing.

That seems to reassure him a little, though! He's still looking worried, but finds it in himself to joke.]

A member of Baritones, chiding someone else for being dramatic?

[Alright, back to focusing on breathing. In, out.]

...I talked about it with Absinthe before. Whether it's... fine for me to sacrifice someone or kill them by such second-hand means in a game when I could not do it face to face.

[Do we have like grass or sand or something on the floor so he can trace patterns in it?]

We agreed that if we met in such a game that pitted us against one another directly... We would both do our best to win. Even though I know I would lose... but I felt that I would owe it to him to try. I tried to treat it as a thought exercise... even made some designs that would--designs for weapons...

[Judging by the way he trails off, though, he's not very happy about that. In fact, he's starting to look more distant again, like he's dissociating.]