firstworldproblem | Thread Continuations

[Well, at least the fact that Emet laughs seems to soothe him. Leaning onto his shoulder a bit, as much as he can while Emet's driving.]

That is much better. But do you understand now why I refused the office, too? Decisions are hard work, harder than I'm cut out for.

You are never allowed to accuse me of being lazy.

[He leans his head against him.]

The promise I made still I will uphold. Though I think more than than the two of us need to be considered for the when.

[... well, actually.]

It gets a little complicated, doesn't?.. We haven't got Azem here. Or... anywhere at all, anymore. The one back home is friends with our younger selves.

Azem will go with our younger selves. If that is their wish. To keep that promise. They can decide amongst themselves.

... You are still angry with them, aren't you?

...

It's alright, Hades. I don't blame you for it. And I know you love them still.

I know they thought they were doing what was best for everyone, for us. But 'twas the first time we did not stand together, and it was the most important time that we should have.

Perhaps you could talk to the young Azem when we return. I'm sure they would understand your pain, and even if it wouldn't entirely banish it, perhaps you would feel better.

I would not burden them with decisions they did not make.

You wouldn't. But I don't think they'd be happy with the thought of you being hurt.

I don't plan to burden anyone on our star with this outside of academic research. I will be fine.

Will you?

[He has his doubts about the whole "I'm fine" thing.]

And even if I am not, would you have me burden it on those for whom such events would not come to pass? It is not that I doubt their compassion or willingness to help, but I would spare them.

[Putting his chin on Emet's shoulder like the little shit he is.]

I'm not sure what I would have you do, but I wouldn't leave you alone, either. Besides... To them it would be something that would never come to pass. And thus, I think, it would be less of a burden, and take secondary place to taking care of you.

[He likes the contact though his driving might not be straight but there isn't anyone else on the road so who cares!

He does snort though.]

I do remember being disgusted with myself. In that memory. Of my folly, the perversion, the lengths I would go to.

What would you have thought if you were told that I had changed like that? Or, say, Azem themselves. Or any other one of our friends.

If I were my old self?

I would be furious at them for warping our ideals so. Even if I could be bothered to believe it.

Awww, you'd be angry at me.

[SURPRISINGLY, HE DOES THINK IT'S CUTE]

Of course I would.

The normal games you and Azem would get into would pale in comparison.

[is it weird that he's not... upset by the idea.]

Now I almost want to see that.

You always did want to try my patience.

[He squeezes his hand perhaps a bit too roughly.]

But in order to 'see that' as you put it you would have to live through years of tragedy. Perhaps it is best if we skipped all that for you, hmmm?

[Squeezing his hand back! A little apologetic, but still mostly just... affectionate.]

Well, it's not as though I'd want to go through it, of course. But it is interesting to think of what would happen had our roles been reversed.

I have thought about that as well.

Not that it matters in the end. We could spend an eternity guessing or wondering what could have happened differently. But what happened, happened. Wishing it was not the case, would not change that fact.

[... Leaning over to kiss his cheek]

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